Down the memory lane!

On one of the several cold winter night discussions in the hostel canteen of IIM Udaipur, Himmat Bhaiya, the canteen facilitator asked us a thought-provoking question- “What is that one sentence which can make a happy person sad and a sad person happy?” The answer was more interesting than the question, it goes like this- “This too shall pass”. Indeed, good times don’t last forever nor do bad times and the only permanent thing in this universe is ‘change’. Here are a few scribbles from one of my low phases, and today when I look back to that phase and recall that canteen lesson from Himmat Bhaiya, I fondly smile and whisper to myself- he was so correct that night.

Gone, but not forgotten

Gone are the days when expectations induced smile,

Gone are the days when possessiveness was respected,

Gone are the days when distances created void,

Gone are the days when complaints invited more attention,

Gone are the days when special words and phrases found a place in every second expression,

Gone are the days when demands were welcome,

Gone are the days when fights caused restlessness,

Gone are the golden days leaving behind fond memories.

The day called "present" is rude and harsh,

"Don't expect much" has become the key phrase,

Fights cause nothing more than indifference,

A gesture of love is wishful thinking,

I blame not thee, nor the Lord,

I only have myself to blame.

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Silent reminiscence

Silently I recall the journey with you,

Silently I recall the small bits of conversation,

Silently I recall the long walks and the sweet silence,

Silently I recall the twinkle in your eyes,

Silently I recall the efforts you promised you would put in to make me yours forever,

Silently I recall our unspoken vows,

Silently I recall praying for togetherness to eternity,

Silently I recall the smiles that we shared,

Silently I recall the belief that we will last a lifetime,

Silently I recall disappointment replace happiness,

Silently I recall uncertainties replace beliefs,

Silently I recall silence replace promises,

Silently I recall indifference replace emptiness,

Silently I recall the journey with you..!!!

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All that I ask of you

All that I had asked for was your time… and more of it,

All that I had longed for was your attention… and more of it,

All that I could recall were fond memories…and more of them,

All that I could sense was emptiness…and more of it,

All that I could hope for was a short-lived dream,

All that had disappointed me was your indifference…and more of it,

All that I had desired for was your commitment… and more of it,

All that I had wished for was our happiness… and more of it,

All that I had prayed for was our togetherness… and more of it.

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Did you not know?

I was worthy of a chance, a second thought, a day in the least

And you knew it well….!!!

I was attached to you, your humor, your lingo, your company

And you knew it well….!!!

Tears rolled down my cheeks every time I tried praying

And yes you knew it well…!!!

The destination was beautiful, the journey rough though

And you knew it well…!!!

I wanted you to rebuke me and then embrace me for good

And you knew it well..!!!

I tried to find a thousand excuses to be around you

And you knew it well…!!!

I yearned to be your heart and soul, one you can’t do without

And you knew it well…!!!

Time would make amends, restore the lost happiness and warmth

And you knew it well…!!!

I would walk a thousand miles to be with you

And yes you knew it well..alas..really well…!!!